All I Want Is For Them To Move On; I Have.

 


If you thrive that means they are powerless over you. -- Michelle Lee Nieves


Although my silver lining is that I can write about this and help others who are escaping (or have escaped) Family Violence, I'd rather write about the research I do on the topic and give others a voice. However, this blog is just as much about my journey of keeping contact cut as it is about domestic violence generally.

Although I don't like my bio parents and their families, I don't wish them any harm. I no longer wish for a relationship with them. I'm living my best life and I just wish they would totally leave me and my family alone. I want them to move on. I don't see it as a rejection if they move on because they rejected me when I was in contact with them. If they move on then it's more of a relief. The only challenge for me right now is that I have to remind myself that I still have agency and autonomy over my own life and the only reason they would follow me on social media (on sites I can't block them on) is because they want to give an illusion that they still have power over me. They want me to think that they can still regain power over me. This is the lie they tell themself which is not true.

I'd like to believe that they will never try to bother me again but at least now I am prepared. Every time they bully, harass, or stalk me; I keep a record of it. Right now I have quite the collection that I am going to report to authorities. 

Never be fooled by this behaviour. It's natural to feel angry and scared when this happens but it's not a weakness. Do what makes you feel safe. I deleted my Facebook profile because even though it is private, it makes me feel safer when they can't find any private social media. Just remember that you can keep posts private from non-Facebook friends and be careful what you post. I have already decided to not share certain parts of my life on social media for my and my family's safety. I prefer physical photo albums to Facebook photo albums.

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